Fallen off the path a little.

OK - I haven't stopped meditating but a few things have been going on in my life that have made me extremely tired. The meditation sessions have felt squeezed in rather than a good relaxing time.

Being tired has always made me grumpy but luckily I have a lovely, understanding wife that copes well when I'm a little off balance.

So what's happened: We got a new puppy - I'd forgotten how much was involved in raising a pup. She's great but the toilet training is hard work and means many broken nights. And to add to that, my wife got a kidney infection. Man - it's hit her extremely hard. But on the plus side, she's so ill that she doesn't get to taste my wonderful cooking - if you can call it that!

Anyway, justification aside, I'm really looking forward to achieving some stability of mind. Got to ensure I make enough time to enjoy my meditation.

Dalia Lama - keeping it real, as always!

I wish I could remember all the little realisations I have so I could add notes to this blog. The blog just helps me reaffirm what are, hopefully, better ways of thinking.

I've been reading a book by the Dalai Lama (How to see yourself as you really are) - wow, he really takes your thoughts of reality to a new level!

He's helped me understand that you can't expect changes in behaviour to happen overnight. By approaching objects of meditation in the right way and over time you can start seeing things for what they really are - and this holds try for your behaviour.

Once you can see the behaviour (or whatever) in it's true light you can really accept it. The book touches on something that Buddhists call Dependant Arising which I'm beginning to get to grips with and may never fully understand but it's helped me start on that next level of meditation that I felt I was ready for.